Assalamualaikum,

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin. 

July, 16 2016. 2 months to go! 

Another new phase in life. Alhamdulillah. ! 

Learn.

#np Love me like you do. 

Hey ho! Its been a year since my last post! ouh my. Time flies =)) 

So now I am 25 years old in the year of 2015 :) So how's life treating you so far? I don't even know to whom I'm asking :p

I am not a student anymore. I'm working now! Another new phase of life right :) But the learning phase is still keep on going. 

My uncle once remind me "when you are start to earn, you are still keep on learning"

That makes me eager to learn more. Thanks uncle for your reminder.

So as I grow up. I learn how to make my own decision, Learn to handle my own problems. Learn how to manage my financial and stuff. haha

I learn that I can't please everyone. I don't give a damn to those who I cant make them feel happy because they are living in negativity world but I will just focus on the important people in my life.

I learn that I am the one who responsible to take care of my own self by considering that health is one of my valuable asset! I started to go to the gym, thanks to IHM for the encouragement. How nice if I have my gym buddy since IHM will be assigned in a different state by next month :( Hitting to be physically fit is the aim! 

Speaking of my aim for this year I need to get out from my comfort zone. I need to risk learn new things. I might regret more on the things that I didn't do, not the things that I did.. Perhaps? I should't waste my time on doing any lame and ridiculous things. I know that working is not that easy as we thought. When you are in the University your lecturer might sent you a simple text saying that class is cancel and you can still continue your sleep but working does not come with that sweet text package in the morning! I need to deal with that. Patience is a virtue, be patient, don't fall off the path and never lose faith. I got my first job by my own no networking no cable and so on, I should be proud for this achievement! 

I learn to count my happiness as many as I can. I started to post any happiness things in my social media :) count your blessing count your  happiness! you will feel grateful ;) 

and I learned that, people changed... and me too :) 

I am not as nice as I used to be, Because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. You should learn how to identify your own true friends and those friend for benefits.

I have changed because I have realized that I am the only person I can depend on! 

Semoga Allah murah kan rezeki, diberkati dan dilindungi :)

Semoga saya semakin Ikhlas hidup dalam dunia.

Sayang, 

iena :)

My man does.

In the middle of makan kerang bakar, and me suddenly pop up a lame question. 

Me : Mel, kerang hidup di mana?

Mel : ish ish ish.. btl kakak nda tau?

Me : Yalaa.. di mana?

Me : You, kerang hidup katne?

IHM : sengih

Mel : Tuuuu terbang-terbang...

LOL!

Whatsapp

Me : Me going out makan with classmate, makan dkt seafood area IPB

IHM : Take care, nak makan apa makan sana?

*in the middle of diet, so no rice..*

Me : dunno laaaa

IHM: Makan bihun tom yam ke..

Me : Hey! was thinking the same menu too! 

Queue bayar tol

Me : after settle nak buat ape? Ada plan?

IHM : no.. xde.. de nak beli pape?

Me : Takde.. 

IHM : Thor?

Me : Hey! sama baru terfikir nak Thor!

Mall. (Malaysian Mall, guards only speak the basic words. Yala guards kan foreigner mari..)

Me: Tutup.. Jam?

Guard : Yaaa tutup.. (maybe sebab dia da nampak malam)

Me: No, close? time?

Guard. : (dia rindu jiran dia, dia speaking bahasa ibunda dia..which none of the word I could understand!)

IHM : Close? (buat tangan tutup pagar) Time? (tunjuk jam)

Guard : 10pm sambil buat kepala gembira tangan naik atas *yala yala*

berjalan sambil tersengih. and IHM said, ni belajar cakap sama bangla maa.. bagus banyak workers bangla. Senang nak master communicate kalau cari surau mana mana mall lagi.

Always take my happiness as his priority and always did his best to every single things happened. I met some guys along my journey, thanks for leaving me for good. I found someone better :)

Above all, I love him. I once told my sister bout my man, about the phobia problems regarding men and she simply replied me, Momel tengok Ijat boleh jaga kakak, tengok kakak selalu tanya soalan bodo2 dia layan jak. Thanks for always have a simple word for my 1000 words questions. you complete me through that. Thanks!

Semoga dilimpah kan lagi rezeki yang banyak dan boleh belanja saya coffee lagi! :D

Reddish.

To my hardworking man. 

Kerja penat today nak makan best best. 

Cake as usual :)

Red velvet and red dangerous lipstick. thanks my man! :)

Broke and Bad.

Ignorance is bliss?

I was in the middle of exam. Five down and another one waiting on this July, 11. I went to library more frequent like I ever did in past semesters. I found studying at the library is the most effective way for me. I can stay more longer digesting to what I'm reading to and I can memorize better. Plus, I don't have anyone that pleased to study together with me here in my house. I come out with this solution but I can sense the negative reaction from several sides. I don't know why and I don't give a damn to know why (No I lie!) 

I don't know why.

I went to the library due to I realize studying alone is not really helping. For me laa. God bless those who can handle studying alone.

But when I reached home, I can sensed that the atmosphere was not really like it used to be. Silent. I thought it was about everybody was concentrated to what they were up to. But after few days, It was not like I thought. 

Classmates now start expressing their concern towards what was happened. Of course they realized what was happen. I walk more independently now.

My car was kissed by an asshole that day. I got his plate num but I think that was really not helping me now. After I reached home last night, my fog lamp was on fire. This might due to the first hit incident I guess. I'm helpless last night. Shivering and I don't feel like I have shoulder to lean on to. Terrible. 

Too much troubles happen in past few days. I keep praying to Allah. I wish to be more stronger than I could be. Should be or must be. I miss my parents so much. Distance is really killing me now. Lover is not around.

I once think that I am pathetic. But to reconsider it back, I'm not telling the world that I can't bear what Allah tested me. I'm not pathetic. I just feel like I am. 

I'm well aware to what happen in Egypt now. We have the stupidest media on earth saying the bad things bout what exactly happening there, but a brilliant investigation media on what is really happen to celebrities in Malaysia. Funny, but this is the truth happening! I praised to Allah for all blessing things that He gave to me. All blessed things that I enjoy living with. What happening to me was not as big and sad as what happened in Egypt. I'm thankful for that. 

Motivation is the only word and can ease my days 

It broke my heart as well.

I don't manage to have any placement yet for my internship program. I feel all these problem was really challenging. But no matter what, Its to early to give up. I need more strength to face what is happening.

I have this kind of muka selenge but believe me.. no one knows how fragile I am!

How bad I keep myself to stay calm.

How sad I am dealing with my bad days.

but some people are easily judged me that

I AM BAD!